I think I'm gonna stay up to watch the sunrise today. It's 5:00 am, and I looked it up; the sun rises at 6:43 here today, and I know there's no way I'm gonna fall asleep between now and then. I think I'm gonna walk out on the bike path, all bundled up because it's friggin freezing outside, and just watch the sun come up. It'll be nice.
I'm so sick of not being able to sleep. Today's program is explainable--yesterday morning I slept until almost three pm, because I had a headache. But even then I didn't go to sleep until almost seven.
My sleep clock is just not right. I try to go to bed at midnight; best case scenario, I take an Ambien and fall asleep by three. That's, like, amazing case scenario, because three is early for me at this point. Four is more reasonable, and five is normal. That's ON the sleeping pills. If I don't take them, I don't sleep at night, and then I take tiny little hour-here-hour-there naps during the day, and then i don't sleep again, and blah blah blah
it's a vicious cycle.
One good thing that's coming out of this is that I am getting a lot of writing done. I've done about fifteen pages in five days, that's three pages a day...not bad. I really like where the story is taking me, and where the characters are going. It's such a great feeling, just creating these people and saying, "Okay, here, go!" and they really do pull you along. It's great.
Okay, I'm gonna go do something to fill my time while I wait for the sun to rise.
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