Shifting Focus

I've been so focused on thrillers recently; I've lived, breathed, and EDITED my thriller so much that I'm so sick of it. After I finish editing and sending out "Shades of Grey", I think I want to be done with thrillers for awhile.

I'm really getting into young adult literature, and I feel like, at least for now, I could really fit into that genre. I'm reading a lot of YA books to get a feel of the authors and the themes, and I feel like I could definitely do it. My short story, "Five," is technically young adult, and my new project that I WANT to be working on instead of editing Shades, it's YA too.

I'm kind of worried right now, too, because my mom thinks I might have PCOS. I don't really feel like going into it, but if you want to know what it is, look it up. I'm sick of people trying to diagnose me when I don't feel like anything is wrong with me.

Yes, I'm overweight. I'm trying to work on that.

No, I don't sleep well. Also trying to work on that, by getting healthy and eating right.

No, I'm not exactly loving my appearance right now. See #1.

Yes, I've had ovarian cysts.

But come on people, PCOS? Seems like a reach to me. Or, at least, I hope it is.

I refuse to worry about it, because I don't think anything's wrong with me. Yes, I need to work on things. So let me take responsibility for what I've done (or haven't done), and give me the time to fix them.

Don't try to diagnose me. I'm sick of everyone being wrong.

So cute

I just thought this was adorable:

A cool option

My life in six words, a cool possibility.

It's an idea I from a Ludo song, actually, but it's uber-cool.

"There's chaos in everything I touch."

I like that, because chaos can be good or bad, exciting or draining. Sometimes I thrive on chaos, sometimes I hate it.

I think that might be my life in six words.

ps, for those of you who're interested, the actually Ludo lyric is:

"There is catastrophe in everything I touch."

Also cool, but 'catastrophe' definitely has a negative connotation whereas 'chaos' is more ambiguous.



There's chaos in everything I touch.

haha

Thanks Emma and Rachel!

That is all.

haha

I love my job. I think.

I get kicked, spat upon, and hugged. Those certainly seem like mixed messages, no?

Well, then, welcome to the preschool class at Faith Educare.

And I must admit, it's not usually just one kid doing all that stuff. Usually it's one kid doing the kicking and screaming, and another hugging me and trying to make it all better. Some of them are so freaking cute, and then some are little monsters. I suppose that's to be expected.

I don't know what I really expected to put up here, since it seems like no one ever checks this thing now that i'm back in the country. Just wanted to keep y'all updated that i'm working a shit-ton and writing way more than i thought i would be. So that's good.

I guess i'll talk to you guys later.

me

Fun in the Mountains

I got back from Rachel's house tonight, and now I really don't want to go to work tomorrow. Little kids, screaming and running around, greeting me at eight in the morning with loud noises and things being thrown. Oh, goody.

But, yay. This weekend was a lot of fun. Mostly I loved the lake (Oral Lake, believe it or not), and the Yoke family cabin. It exceeded my expectations by far. I was thinking it was this tiny broken down wooden structure. Their cabin is amazing, it's so beautiful, and it looks right out onto the lake.

I told Rachel, it's great having friends who have nice things. Because now i can share said nice things, and not feel like a complete and total moocher. :-)

ttyl me