I think my ear infections are coming back full-force. I was hopeful earlier today, but this evening I started feeling some very familiar pressure in my left ear. I don't know. I hope that's not the case, but we'll see.
*I had some kind of epiphany this evening. And it was....drum roll, please....
My big brother is getting married.
dah-duh-dah!!!
dah-duh-dah!!!
Now, i know i should have realized this a long time ago, but it's just now starting to feel real. It's so crazy! He's my big brother! We share music and get in fights and call each other bad names. He's the only person on this planet that can truly get under my skin, and I hope I'm one of the people on this planet that he truly trusts.
It's just so weird. Alan...married? wow. But the up side of this is HUGE. Most little sisters worry about losing their big brothers to their new brides, or that they'll be shoved behind or always thought of as the little sister. I'm not really worried about any of that. I love Emma to death, and I hope she already considers me a sister or a friend, not just her fiance's little sister. I'm actually pretty sure she already does.
Alan and Emma, well...they complete each other. Without getting too Jerry McGuire on you here, let me explain. I can't imagine Alan being with anyone else. And after twenty years of watching him be with people, Em's the only one that really...fits. He's truly happy with her, and that's something I've never really seen before. He's himself, and he's happy. It's amazing. If true love exists (which I sometimes doubt), then it exists in this relationship.
I couldn't be happier for my brother or for the wonderful woman he's marrying.
I don't know how this post took that sentimental bent. I guess I just started really thinking about it today, and how weird it's going to be for awhile. But, hey, I'll get to be an aunt some day! I think I'll make a good aunt. (Or, if it's a ginger...haha)
Okay, done with the sentimental crap. I just wish i could sleep.
Sign Language and French are going well, though my sign prof grades really really tough. I worked hard on this presentation and got a 42/50 on it, which isn't terrible, but it isn't exactly great, either. It's just tough. I'll feel bad if I don't make As in all TWO of my classes, but I'm trying not to stress myself out about it. I'm still sick, so I'm just trying to get back on track.
I suppose I should at least pretend to sleep since I have to get up in like seven hours.
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It's just so weird. Alan...married? wow. But the up side of this is HUGE. Most little sisters worry about losing their big brothers to their new brides, or that they'll be shoved behind or always thought of as the little sister. I'm not really worried about any of that. I love Emma to death, and I hope she already considers me a sister or a friend, not just her fiance's little sister. I'm actually pretty sure she already does.
Alan and Emma, well...they complete each other. Without getting too Jerry McGuire on you here, let me explain. I can't imagine Alan being with anyone else. And after twenty years of watching him be with people, Em's the only one that really...fits. He's truly happy with her, and that's something I've never really seen before. He's himself, and he's happy. It's amazing. If true love exists (which I sometimes doubt), then it exists in this relationship.
I couldn't be happier for my brother or for the wonderful woman he's marrying.
I don't know how this post took that sentimental bent. I guess I just started really thinking about it today, and how weird it's going to be for awhile. But, hey, I'll get to be an aunt some day! I think I'll make a good aunt. (Or, if it's a ginger...haha)
Okay, done with the sentimental crap. I just wish i could sleep.
Sign Language and French are going well, though my sign prof grades really really tough. I worked hard on this presentation and got a 42/50 on it, which isn't terrible, but it isn't exactly great, either. It's just tough. I'll feel bad if I don't make As in all TWO of my classes, but I'm trying not to stress myself out about it. I'm still sick, so I'm just trying to get back on track.
I suppose I should at least pretend to sleep since I have to get up in like seven hours.
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1 comment:
wow..that made me tear up for real..
i love youuuu!
love, ur big sis :)
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